I have Today (Recovery/Life/Spriritual)
Being the Alcoholic that I am, I have to live one day at a time.
Looking forward to only the next breath sometimes.
Going to meetings to get my daily spiritual fix.
Hearing the words that God has chosen to speak to me.
I must listen to others to hear what God is speaking to me.
God does not speak to me directly, He speaks to through others,
through the ones at meetings, and you here at Starlite.
I must keep an open mind and listen for what He is trying to tell me,
sometimes it's murky and not so clear, sometimes it is glaringly obvious.
Sometimes I dont like what I hear, but such is life, we do what we can.
Fear , anger and chaos used to rule my life, this is no longer true today.
God will do for me what I was unable or unwilling to do for myself.
It took but one simple thing to do this. I surrendered.
I surrendered my will and my Life over to the care of God.
I pray every day and every night for God's will to work in my life,
and for Him to relieve me of my insanity. It has worked now for over 2 years.
Today is 'The only day in existence' for me, Oh, I can plan and I can dream,
but what it all comes down to is, what I want and what God's will for me is, are two sometimes totally different things. There is a line from a song I Love, written and sung by Van Zant, the song titled 'Help Somebody' this is the line: And if you wanna hear God laugh, tell him your plans He saved me from death and myself years ago when I got hit by that car and broke my leg, He saved me 2 years ago when He made me realize I didnt need to drink anymore.
The blessings of a sober life are just too numerious to mention nor could I even come close to listing them. I became a Godfather two days ago, two years ago I could not be trusted with car keys, now I am entrusted with a childs life if it should become necessary. What a blessing. I am blessed with a Love that trancends any I have ever had before. What a blessing. I am blessed with peace of mind unlike any I have ever known. What a blessing. Most of all I am surrounded by friends both physical and cyber that make all my so called friends that have gone before pale in comparison.
This life I have chosen to lead is the greatest Blessing of all.
Today is 'The only day in existance' for me.
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Written for Lisa Lindsey's Catch the Soaring Star Challenge
Phrase: 'The only day in existance'
Official entry.
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If you feel you might have a problem with drinking or drugs, the chances are you do.
Call your local AA office and find out for yourself.
Help Somebody
By Mrjunkman
© 2006 Mrjunkman
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