Worthless and Useless
Worthless and Useless
I know that, to myself, it's worth it to stay alive...
All of my long pitiful life, I've worked so hard at doing just that...
Even forgetting a lot of the time to take care of myself...
because others always needed, needed, needed....
Now, I'M the needy one and where is everyone?
Where is everyone who said they would be here for this one?
I'm outside myself, going insane, always extremely stressed...
My life is just one gigantic mess!
And I cry out in pain and crippling fear...
Where are those who said they would hear?
and always be right here!
Every dream I've dreamed in life has faded fast...
All of my life...all of my life....
Maybe life's too good for the likes of one like me...
It's never smooth and easy, always suffocating strife.
A challenge that I'm not sure I can handle anymore...
I can't take it!...I can't take it!...I can't take it anymore!
Is it always going to be this way?
I've been so good; at least I thought I was...
So, I'm sure that I don't know the awful reasons why.
I've been searching for a solution for a very long time...
but, now I'm just so tired....too tired to search any longer.
There are so many questions but no answers.
This life I'm living now is killing me slowly, slowly.....endless sleep...
If you can call it living......no, it's not...
Today, I was told I'm useless, I'm worthless.....good for nothing.
Useless and all I can do is accept it.
and be relegated to the garbage heap of existance....
And no one cares for me....and no one cares.
By arwengentlewood
© 2007 arwengentlewood
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