Thanks to God and to the Angels
Chapter nineteen
“Thanks to God and to the Angels in my life.”
In this chapter I would like to say to my friends and others who I like to call Angels, “You all have been an inspiration to me, in my life, in living and in growing.” Also in writing this book. I would like to thank a dear friend who has been there for me from the beginning, has gone through all the ups and downs I have been through. Has been loving to me when I had no idea I was loved. Thank you for loving and taking care of me. I thank you for never leaving me. I thank you for being with me all those nights. I would cry all night missing my son. I thank you for your patience, the strength and courage you gave me. I thank you for carrying me, letting me fall and get back up with your guidance. The friend I am talking about is God, the Spirit, and thanks for loving me before I knew what love was. Thank you from me to you, we are one and so it is.
I would like to thank Greg, a dear friend of mine who has passed on and won his Emmy. He was and is a teacher in my life, and has been very encouraging to me. He loved me until I could love myself. I say he still is because I can feel his presence with me at times I can really feel his love for me. He helped me out by accepting me for who I am, and to accept my family, at the same time teaching me not to be a doormat. I am grateful for knowing you Greg. Greg, you have finally won the Emmy you are one with God, I love you Greg.
My Dear friends Mrs. B. and Mr. B. I want to say thank you both for being there for me. And for all the love and encouragement you both have given me. You both were there when I had no place to live; you took me in and loved me until I could love myself. Thank you for loving me and showing me how to grow up. You showed me through your actions. Life is special to me. God has sent me Angels. I consider you two, beautiful Angels from God. The right people have always been there. God has made sure I am grateful for the love in my life. So many people have left footprints in my path for me to follow. I thank you all who have come into my life; you truly are gifts from God.
I would like to mention my “Earth Angel” who I call “mom.” I wrote about her in chapter five. Earth Angel you are special and you are an example of one who walks with God. May God hold you through this trying time. I love you my Earth Angel you will always be a part of me.
I would like to say thank you to my Angel in the park. I believe you are an Angel; God knew exactly what I needed that day in the park. When you came up to me, talked to me and shared with me your life. You did not know you were keeping me from destroying myself. God brought you to me to help me. For that I am grateful, I believe we all have Angels watching over us. Some human Angels, some spirit Angels. Who knows you may be talking to your Angel.
I would like to thank all my friends who I have met on the net. I thank you for all the support and love, your encouragement in writing this book, especially on the days I wanted to give up. You all had wonderful words of encouragement. It seems when there is a reason to do something God makes sure it gets done.
I would like to thank my friends at the church I went to years ago. The minister Marlene. Marlene you have truly been a blessing. You have helped me stay strong and be the real me. You gave me encouragement and let me be myself, accepted me for who I am. I love you. You are so enthusiastic and encouraging to me. You have been there for me in so many ways. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. You helped me get back to writing. I put it on hold. I gave up and you let me know that giving up does not help anything. I thank you for helping me get back on my feet from all the pain I was in. I know God is with me and I know you are an inspiration to me. I am grateful. Some of us grow up slower than others and I am glad you are here for us.
I would like to thank you for all the groups; the meditation and prayer groups. I have met many loving people. God has shown me love through all of you. I would like to say thanks to Annie, you are a loving person. You have such a beauty from within that shines through and a strength that is a gift from God. Cindy, you’re a beautiful light that shines on us. Marie with your beautiful smile, thank you for being you. Thomas, you are such an example of the love of God and I see the beauty you posses, I love you. Mike has a voice of an Angel; he always brings tears of joy to me. I want to thank Kim for listening to me on the phone for hours when I was going through the pain of court and letting go of my son. You all have been a blessing to me I thank everyone. There are more people I did not mention. I thank each and every one of you. I can go on and on with everyone there at the church. I have found a place that I can honestly call home. It has taken me a while to really be ok with myself and I am today. I love myself today. I have many people who have loved me until I could love myself. I want to thank my God within for the gift.
I would like to say to my husband Phil. I love you. You have gone through so much with me. You have put up with so much. You’re so special you have been so encouraging to me. My love for you is from God. You have helped God by teaching me to become a lady. God is using you and I am grateful. God gave me a gift and the gift is you. I know you are an example of the Love of God. You stood by me thick, and thin. I thank you sweetie.
I want to thank the people from the twelve step groups I belong to. You have loved me until I could love myself. You were there from the beginning when I walked in and was dying, you all picked me up and got me on my feet, I thank you. This is special for me to write this and be able to share love and be loved. Life is a wonderful journey; we can make it as wonderful as we choose to. That is a gift.
I really feel I have to let everyone know that there is life after hell. I have lived in hell for years. I was dying spiritually, mentally and physically. There was help for me and there is help for anyone that wants it.
If there is anyone who is being abused or was and has not been able to get through the memories, I want to say you can survive, you are not at fault and you’re loved. We can be happy, joyous and free. No matter what happened to us, or what things we have done, we are children of God. We can live life and be at peace, we are loved. When I was married the first time, I was dying. I got help at a battered women’s home. I do not believe I mentioned this in the other chapters. I went and stayed there for three days. I was so much into my denial that I did not let them help me. When I let go of the denial I got help and my life is totally different today. No matter where you live, no matter if you’re male or female or what you have done in your life or what has been done to you, there is help and God is with you every step of the way. Reach out and let someone touch you, then you go out and touch someone else. Spread the love of life, the love of God. Be at peace, you’re deserving of it. God is love and you are love so let’s love each other. Let’s be the children of God we’re meant to be. Let’s take a friend’s hand and let them know we care. God is all. God is with you just ask and you shall receive. The love of God is always there for us, in us, and through us. Have a good day and if you don’t it is your own fault.
Make it a good day, it is your choice.
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