Continued Where I am today
Where I am today continued.
As for my adoptive mother, I would have rather have had a mother
who cared and wanted the best for me not my death. I would like
my mother to learn how to love herself so she can experience loving
others. I cannot be a doormat anymore so I have to stay away from
her. It is none of my business what she does because I have given
her to God. I realize we cannot choose our families but we can choose
our friends. At the same time, I think we do choose our families as an
experience in this life. I am not sure, but I am sure of one thing, I am
loved by God. God loves us all. I realize more and more that nothing
matters of what I have done or what was done to me. Because God
is within all of us, in the end we will all be one with God. We will
understand why we experienced what we did and why we chose
the things we did. I realize more and more that God was there when
I was a child. I just was unable to see and feel the love. God can and
does give us the love that we feel we have missed out on. We just
have to be open to see and feel the Love.
My friend “Earth Angel” has spread her love. Earth Angel you are a
shining example of God’s love. You have proven the doctors wrong,
you have lived past the six months, and it has been about eleven
months now. I am blessed to know you. Soon you will receive your
Emmy for living life. Now you can relax and go with God and be one.
I heard someone say, “It is not how we die, it is how we live. There
is no death, we go on to another experience.” Earth Angel you have
shown me how to live and you’re showing me how to pass on to
another experience.
I will be sad when you pass over, that is my humanness, my selfishness
and I will miss you. At the same time I am joyful to know you, and know
you will be at home and at peace. I do know that you Earth Angel, will
be in peace, you will be smiling over me and be my Angel in my pocket.
You have always told me to put you in my pocket when I am hurting
and you will walk with me. Earth Angel you will always be in my heart.
I love you.
As I am writing this last paragraph, it is July 21, 2001. I received news
that my Earth Angel has received her Emmy and gone home. She is
now one with God. At the time of her passing, about 2:30 AM,
I experienced her coming to me in a dream. I talked to her, she
told me she loved me and she was ok. I told her that I love her.
I will miss her. I know she is only a thought away.
To be continued....
By Angellady
© 2007 Angellady
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