God Help Me
God help me I pray ! Give me the strength to walk away ,And do what I must .
You tell me you love me wouldn't know what to without me ?
The best wife a man could want yet you do the evil things you do .
You hurt me so much inside told me so many lies .
Yet you say your love is true ? Then why just tell me the truth for once.
You even promised on your daughters life your lies were truth .
But you know I knew you hadn't changed your lies don't fool me any more.
My heart is numb from the pain you caused today .
When I seen your computer today and the groups your had joined.
The letters you wrote to other women in our area wanting to meet in person .
Do you know how painful that is to me ? Your so very selfish ,And vain and such a liar.
How can I learn to ever trust you ?
Help Dear Lord to calm me down and not think of what I would like to do to him .
I don't know what to do ,He has no money or a job I pay all the bills on $600 a month .
Good lord what do I do ? How do I know he didn't meet this woman that lives in our own town .
I have tried to understand we have talked to a shrink and still are, yet you still lie.
I can't force you to love me by beating you to death , Or even getting angry and yelling .
Wouldn't want you punching holes in the wall.
I'm this far -----from leaving you ! Your so vain you don't think I will .
Well your sweetheart is so angry today I feel like I could blow you away with out a second thought.
Stupid people tell me all men do that look at porn ,and have on-line affairs .
Well meeting in person is whole different story.
Some stupid wife's tell there husbands it's ok then expect me to ?
I have put up with a lot from you the last few years and you don't even bother to say your sorry unless forced by your shrink.
I'm ashamed of you ,you can't be true your killing my love for you .
You have everything you need and most of what you want.
I will never understand you why do you treat me the way you do.
We have met christens that say you can still make it to heaven without forgiveness in your heart.
But some how I know that can't be true ., How can I forgive you if I stay with you.
I'm in a daze and very confused ,feeling unloved,un wanted ,and very angry with you even thinking about leaving you.
Guess you will have to find someone else to take care of you .
Well I know a few men any ways that don't do those kinds of things .
By GodsChildOfLove
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