Psyche
Yesterday I declared myself a free state,
when I separated from you.
Cut
......Cut
............Cut
And there had to be damage done.
ID
The first –
- when I learned that we were not a perfect fit.
Your feelings would grind against mine,
creak, scrape, erode us.
You tried to cover up the differences
but your workmanship was flawed
and it never did quite hide the rust.
Cut – I learned that I am not you on the most basic level.
The fundamental stage of rejection.
EGO
The second –
- when you calmly told me that I never going to be enough.
That I must submerge myself in you
and wear your negativity like armour.
You met my resistance with controlled ignorance
and punished me for letting others inside.
Cut - I learned to trust my senses.
My judgement is as valid as my empathy.
SUPER-EGO
The third –
- when you told me you wanted to end your life,
because of me.
There
.........Are
............... No
.....................Words
For this kind of baiting, bullying, control.
And in your blinkered mind, by leaving you,
I was doing myself a disservice.
My crime was kindness, guilty as charged.
Cut – I learned I am not weak.
No-one has the right to deny me my dreams.
Yesterday I declared myself a free state.
Damage done, independence won.
By Tinuviel
© 2008 Tinuviel
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