What’s hidden behind the smile?
You see on my face
Are the tears that fall?
Down my face
I wipe them away
I never let anyone see
The pain I hold inside
It’s a secret that I keep
I put on a mask
And a painted on smile
But hidden underneath it all
Is a pain that goes on for miles?
A pain that I’ve known,
for a long time
A pain that comes from a man
Who has a hateful hand?
I tried to hide the bruises
Scars, marks, and tears
But my friend let me tell you
I live a life
Of fear
Never knowing why he does it
Never knowing when he will strike
I live in fear and pain
Everyday of my life
Why do I stay and take it
You would never understand
Unless you too
Have lived
With an abusive man
We all have different reasons,
For why we stay
You would never understand
But
I will try to explain
I stay because I feel as those
The bruises are my fault
I must have done something wrong
To make him act this way
And he always says he’s sorry
And send me flowers
The next day
He says he did not mean it
And it won’t happen again
He says he is sorry
But
I made him angry
Again
I have children
I can’t make it on my own
Where will I live?
How will I support them?
On my own
I no longer have family
He has chased my friends away
If I were to leave him
I’d have no safe place
To stay
He would only hunt me down
You see
He has done this before
And I’ve always came back
And suffered
Through some more
I have no self esteem
No pride in myself
I am like a broken doll
Sitting on a broken shelf
I look in the mirror
And I don’t like what I see
I’m not blind
I can see,
the bruises and marks,
on me
But I close my eyes and pray
That it won’t happen again
But I’m no fool
I know
He will hit me again
I have not the strength
Nor courage,
to pack my bags and walk away
So hidden behind the smile
Are the tears
I will not let you see
What's Hidden Behind the Smiles
Hostess
Jollynoblefrog
Grandma Ruby
