Positive/Negative Effect
There I was
in my own little world
feeling worthless and alone
asking myself daily
did I not deserve to be loved?
understood?
respected?
I wandered endlessly
one day to next
seeking an answer
to what will the 'morrow bring?
will there be sunshine
behind dismal clouds
that hovered
overhead
strangling me
with veils of darkness
would I ever see
my dreams fulfilled?
would the tears
I cry
perhaps
one day
be tears of pure joy?
one lonely night as I sat
questioning
life, death, God,
wanting to live
yet,
Praying to die,
a stranger knocked on my heart
liken to a rainbow
after the storm
with him
I looked at things
in a different perspective
feasting on positive
casting out negative
as he nourished
my being
with kindness,
friendship,
sincerity
it wasn't long
before I felt
renewed,
worthwhile
special...
a fading rose
brought back to life
we shared everything
from good to bad
and all things in between
there were no secrets
as our inner feelings
opened up
allowing the other in
where
trust and respect
became stainless
then...
suddenly without warning
the rains came
pouring down
with storms of life
crashing my world
once again
I sensed
things were different
yet waltzed
with denial
wanting so badly
to believe
it was but
a temporary
change
but nothing lasts forever
and the rainbow faded
out of sight
far beyond my reach
silencing our midnight
serenade
leaving me
to hug the night
with tearful thoughts of
'what in the hell happened?'
11/04/09
By Rose Marie Streeter
© 2009 Rose Marie Streeter
(All rights reserved)
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