junction box blues
why it pulls
in the pit of my stomach
what it says
about how i feel
not knowing what is happening
'cause anxiety comes...
so easily these days
it's the anticipation of pain
or misunderstanding
the demanding
that i pause in my day
most everything that is
my way
goes undone
i shun the feelings
but they don't shun me
they eat away at all
that i see
can it be i just subdue it
cause i don't want to go thru it
again
it's been so many times
in my life
the strife with no end
in sight
just a blight on my hopes
and dreams
that go awry
and things just break
down
all around me
it just seems
a black cloud
surrounds me
and i just can't seem to
get away
from all the decay
of...
reality
i just want to stay
where the feelings are safe
where my comfort zone
can place me
in the layers of contentment
my resentment
for the failings
of my dreamscape
the past wailings...
can't escape them
where's the energy
to pick up
where i left off
can i do
what's left to do
can i succeed
in what i need
or am i just too greedy
why can't the dreams be
easier
why can't anything just fall
i see it fall for others
but it's just not my call
and i want so bad to
get it
but what is it
in the end
i just keep dreaming
& just keep trying
but it just doesn't seem
to pan out my way
darn the dismay
anyway
the junction box
ain't hot
and i don't know
what i've got
ain't got no energy
to get it done
it's like my feelings
just want to run
in 20 amp mode
but there's no cable
long enough...
to get me there
i've just been shorted
blasted...
and distorted
and i just can't
pay the energy bill
and it's a long walk
up destiny's hill
if i don't get there
will you carry on
because it's all just dreams
and they'll be gone
except...
what i've left behind
and it don't seem much
for all the climbing
i've done...
feels like i've just begun
but it's too late
to multitask
and now the future's
become the past
and there's nowhere to go
because it has just gotten
so slow
and i just wanna rest...
i've got the junction box blues
ain't got no energy
i've got the junction box blues
i've lost my synergy
it's all left town
nowhere around
so i'll just chill
until my mojo
can be found
By C. Steven Blue
© 2011 C. Steven Blue
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