There was much that I was too afraid to tell you - |
Scared for you, scared for me.
I loved you as much as I have ever loved, it’s true.
But there was nothing good we could be.
I was not a place where you would thrive,
And you allowed the very worst in me to take a hold.
Your actions were careless, mine unforgivable. It’s true.
But you never really fought what I decided.
You think there was so much I never gave, never showed to you.
That in someway, sufficient love wasn’t provided
Did you have the courage to stand beside me and claim what you wanted?
What did you offer to me that was worthy of such love?
And yet I loved you, and I love you still.
On nights such as this, alone, it’s you I dream of snuggled in close.
It’s your smell in my nostrils.
Your skin under my fingers.
It’s your face, Little Man.
Had we crashed into each other at our best in this world
The explosion would have been bright, strong, and eternal.
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