Detached Darkness
I do not expect anyone to understand the detachment I feel from the world
From everything and everyone that moves around me
Going through the motions day after day
An endless task that I must endure
I want to be reckless
I want to disappear
I don’t think it will matter
I can’t feel anything this way
The way that I am moving
I feel no pain
I feel no fear
I just feel this darkness
This blackness
This empty void
This total detachment from it all
I try to cry to know that I am alive inside
That I can still feel
But nothing
The tears welt in my eyes
But only for a moment
Then they are gone
I cannot feel for anyone
I cannot reach out to anyone
I don’t care to do so
This darkness is wining
I sit back and allow it to do so
I can explain it no other way
I want to be angry
I want to be sad
I want to feel some kind of emotion
But I can not
The urge to run is in me
To start over
But even this will not get rid of the darkness
The darkness that is deep in my heart
The end is soon
The breaking point
I don’t face it lightly
But it must be faced
The light
The dark
One will win
One I will become
Always
Never to return
I believe the dark will win
By Katherine Kay
© 2012 Katherine Kay
(All rights reserved)
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