Fading Away
~*~
For me, if this was my last day,
I would begin by taking in a deep
breath, filling my lungs to capacity
with smells familiar and dear to me,
capturing them to perhaps savor
later from a place I call my memory.
Then I'd walk around my yard and
touch the leaves of all the beautiful
bushes and flowers remembering
the reason each was planted, 'twas
always a big celebration for me as
everyone knows how I love greenery.
Slowly, as my family awakens, one
by one, I would stand in shadows
watching them silently as they would
move through their day. My very first
grandchild, Bea, how she would romp
and play with her dogs. The smile on
her face says it all. Doing what she
loves, saving every stray that came
her way. She is her grandmother's
pride. My grandson, Jon, as he'd
begin his day, first thinking of his
mother and her needs before his, as
I did for mine, back in the day. His
compassion is far beyond my hopes
and dreams and I pray, one day, he
will be rewarded for his goodness.
He is my joy! I'd have to be sneaky
to watch my daughter, Beth. Smart
as a whip, if our eyes were to meet,
she'd see the quiver in my lips and
that would seriously be the end of me.
She's having difficulty in her own life
but she is persevering, pushing on with
fortitude and dignity, protecting herself
and her family. She is her mother's
daughter, she's almost a duplicate me.
Tony, my sweetie, he's always so busy,
he'd never know I was watching him.
Yet, certain in the still of the night, he'd
realize something sure wasn't right.
Master of his trade, I've always been in
awe of his capabilities. I can only pray
they will occupy his mind and keep his
thoughts off of losing me. And Faith,
my great grand baby, she is the delight
of my life. Almost five in years, she'd
be most apt to forget but I pray her
mother helps keep my memory alive.
Finally, due to my disabilities, I'd been
pretty much a loner until the day I came
to The Starlite Cafe. Many new found
friends have become dear to me. So, if
I must go today, I choose to fade away
in the clarity of a beautiful sunset, vowing
with Mama Sonshine and dear Renee to
encourage you all day by day to write
until you can write no more.
Written for Al's Carpe Diem Challenge
© 2012 Adele Kaye
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