what is on my mind|
is my problem with feeding off attention .
I want to improve my life my well being.
I am so used to being there for my friends
But everyone is happy helping themselves now a days.
or completely in love and don't need my advice.
i have changed what could have been good relationships.
to becoming farther than I ever wanted to be from them.
By allowing them to hear what I say and judge.
I need to carefully take a look at what i say and do around my friends.
The more I talk to people about my life.
I relize all I am doing is spreading my pain and sorrow to others.
I cant promise I have even changed.
I have made impressions which do not reflect who I really am at all.
it is too late to make anything better, or maybe its too soon.
I want to go back to cherishing life and what i have.
No one can hurt me more than I can hurt myself.
When really I need to demand more from 'me'.
Wondering why I demand so much from everyone.
I have been doing so many crimes for so long I dont notice i'm doing anything wrong.
has this life been worth it ?
if you ask my family they will say what a disappointment he is.
if you ask my past relationships they will most likely say he was all I ever wanted
if you ask me I will tell you what you want to hear.
I don't feel like any one can be trusted
is it the drugs and lies I fill my mind with.
or some forgotten tragedy that makes me self destruct
I have been doing some soul searching these past few weeks.
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