I didn’t know then what collateral damage meant|
Or that, in marrying you, I was to be made an example of it,
But that’s how it turned out as you drank and drank
Your way through everything…not seeming to give a wit.
I loved you deeply and prayed daily for you to live
When your heart wouldn’t go…it was all that I could do,
But the more heart attacks and surgeries you had
The more you drank and pushed my love away with your fear
But that was then…now…I’m just collateral damage to you.
Believe it or not though…there’s a little place inside my heart
Where the days of love and laughter still live,
Unfortunately, they reside next door to your legacy of pain
That you were so willing to give.
I know you’ve moved on
And found someone new,
But I heard through a friend that you pulled your crap on her
And being smarter than I thought…
She said goodbye to you too.
I know it is foolish to think of all this now
As from it there would seem to be nothing to gain,
But I think it sometimes helps to write your thoughts down
To bleed off the memories of pain.
So I am leaving you alone now…forgiving you the past
As I let the pain and memories go,
And I am no longer ‘collateral damage’ to you
By being a fool lost in chasms of a love long ago.
I’m back home now with my family and friends
Getting filled up with the warmth of their beautiful love,
My life is full of lots of hugs, joy and laughter again
And I have renewed my faith in God ‘s good grace
That shines down from his heaven above.
For the Back Home Challenge with Jim
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