Seeking Your Forgivness
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My Littlest LAM,
I am
Walking on the outside,
looking deep within...
Looking for some answers,
as to where all of this did begin...
When did the hate consume you,
to the point that you could take it all away...
That you felt I failed you so,
that apart from me you would choose to stay....
I know that I was not perfect,
and that I still make mistakes today...
I know that I misjudged some things,
that were placed within our way...
I put other things in front of us,
that caused us both some harm...
But never did I think these things,
would take you from my arms...
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Was it my own insecurities and fears,
that took you away from me...
Was it things I failed to understand,
things I never will get to see...
Or perhaps I was too hard on you;
my friends always told me that I was...
I just thought that one day;
you may be left all alone...
I just wanted all of the important things,
to be lessons I had shown...
I wanted to teach you the simple things,
like how to love and respect...
I only wanted to teach you,
your own self to protect...
I wanted you to have the things,
which I never did have...
I only wanted to encompass you;
perhaps in doing so,
I failed to let you live...
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When they took you from me I did not fight,
I failed you this is true...
The horror of it all,
made it impossible for me to do...
I ran away and hid my heart,
from myself and the entire world...
I know that in doing this,
the words I said to you became so very spoiled...
I told you I would search the ends of the earth,
If ever you were taken from me...
I never expected it to be something,
I could fail to let you see...
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The pain of losing you,
killed my will to survive,
And it was all I could do,
to find the strength to stay alive...
I left the City of Pain behind;
I never did leave you...
And every day in my new home,
my heart remains alone and blue...
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I am sorry that I failed you,
and that my depression made me weak...
Forever in my heart,
your forgiveness I shall seek...
For you are all that matters,
from the life of my past...
And the emptiness I feel without you,
for all of eternity shall last..
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I don't expect you to understand,
but I sure hope that you do...
I never meant to hurt anyone,
especially My Precious Angel,
YOU...
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Midi By:
LeeAnne Womack
~I Hope You Dance~
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Written: 05/10/03
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Kesia Lynne Shelton~Baxter
aka
By Nasty Angel
© 2003
Nasty Angel
(All rights reserved)
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