Gray
I love you and I miss you and I don’t know where you are
You seem to have disappeared and taken my soul with you
I guess I should have been more forthright
I could have been more open
But I feel as if I never had you anyway
You never were close to being mine
I wonder where you are and whom you are with
And it hurts to remember all those things you said to me
Hurts even more because I began to depend on you
Now you’re just gone away
The soft lilting tone of your voice resonates inside my head
As I just wish, I pray that I hear from you again
You held all the cards, you were the one in control
And now while you have gone away, I am wondering what I could have done
To make it not so
You said you would stick around and I was guilty because I didn’t believe it
But now I suppose it was a premonition after all
I should have known better
Perhaps one day, our paths will cross and I will find you again
But until then, I will keep hoping
That you didn’t walk away because I bored you
And maybe you were scared as I was
And were afraid I could hurt you the way I feared you would hurt me
My skies were gray and it was okay that way
But now you are gone and I don’t know anything anymore
Time will pass and perhaps it will numb somewhat
The aching I feel inside
But I know if I close my eyes, I will always be transported back
To where things were right and you were not afraid of telling me
Just how you were feeling
And I had no problem, telling you most things about me
In a week I gave you my heart
And in a day you tore it apart
I suppose I had it coming
The dumb bitch that I have been
Never thought it could even sting this way
I didn’t think I would actually care
But I do
Wherever you are and where ever you go
And whomever you are with
I hope you find the right thing for you
But know, I will never feel anything could be as right as me
I know that we could have been profound
If not a little unfit
You didn’t care if I was weird as long as I made you laugh
And I believe you fell in love with my head
And the words that I would speak
But regardless, that is all gone now
There is nothing left to do
Except love you and miss you and wish you were here
By Isabella Gomez
© 2005 Isabella Gomez
(All rights reserved)
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