I push away all the time. It is a normal reaction for me.
I crave so much and yet I have given up more than enough.
I have shown you my true self and I have hidden nothing from you.
I'm not a bad person. I do have a good heart. Maybe I am speaking out of guilt.
No, it's not guilt. You've seen my heart and you've felt what I can give.
I sometimes feel like a clear sky that is empty and solid blue.
Waiting for foggy winds or a drizzle of rain. Even a bunny shaped cloud would be nice.
I try to control my horizon but I cannot stop my sun from rising or setting.
I have been myself and if I hurt you in the process I did not mean to.
To have me is not to give to me.
To have me is not to share with me.
To have me is not to entertain me.
To have me is not to keep me.
To have me is nothing more than to follow me and love me.
You can not capture the cool breeze of the wind.
You can not capture the bright shine of the sun.
You can not capture the rythmic waves of a shore.
All of these are ment to be free.
Hold your hands out and feel my breeze.
Sit and feel the warmth of my sunset and appreciate it's beauty.
Lay and bathe in the waves that tap against my shore.
This is who I am.
This is me.
This is how I have to be.
This is how to hug me, to kiss me, make love to me, and take me.